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12 January 2011 @ 10:39 pm
RL sucks, but LJ rules (when it doesn't suck)  
Really... It's been a while since I've been so depressed... I actually postponed fixing my car and taking my cat to the vet because I couldn't leave my bedroom (feeling a little down because of cold and I was loving procrastinating on LJ so much)... when I realized where I was going, I almost have a breakdown and couldn't stop crying for a whole day... a fucking whole day crying that my life is a mess and why do I let it get to that to start with...

My e-mail kept pinging mafia threads and I just wanted to tell everyone to just go fuck themselves up... So, I could either join discussion (and be pissed off about everything and makes no sense at all) or I could take some time off from the drama... So I took a shower and spent the day out running those errands I postponed for too long (not all of them yet, because the day is short and the rain is killing me).

But I'm really glad I took some time to procrastinate on chatzy for a little bit... because I must say that I love teamatlantis today more than ever!! I wanted to hug all and each of you for being supportive and caring and the perfect light distraction I needed to calm me down...

And one specially huge hug for csichick_2 and her cuddly vgift!! Whitney! You have no idea how you brightened my day today!!

I actually cried a little today again, because I feel so loved, I feel that I belong... and yet I still feel so lost and messy... But I'm getting better, with the help of all my friends (in here and RL). I wish I could show you all how much I really value all of you!!!

Thank you!!!
Lucy: little miss sunshinessjspider on January 13th, 2011 01:11 am (UTC)
You've got to know, you're not alone. Your first paragraph really sums up 2010 for me, I had breakdowns sprinkled all throughout the year, the worst of which came near the end.

It'll be ok, people are thinking of you and cheering you on *hugs*
haruechan: Mckays' hugharuechan on January 13th, 2011 02:34 am (UTC)
You know, 2010 had been a year with so many changes that I think it finally caught with me (returned from vacation to an messy empty apartment and all).

Thank you so much! I hope that you too knows you're not alone! *hugs*
Lucy: little miss sunshinessjspider on January 13th, 2011 04:28 am (UTC)
Thanks, I'm better at cheering other people up than I am myself :}
Diego: by my sidediek09 on January 13th, 2011 01:22 am (UTC)
There's no need you do a huge thingy as for showing you thank the support of your LJ friends. They know it and appreciate you just the way you are, and that's priceless.

haruechan: Mckays' hugharuechan on January 13th, 2011 02:36 am (UTC)
You know... that's the world... priceless...

I can't even say how much I love you all for just being here... that sure is priceless...

(I missed you!!!) *tackles*
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haruechan: Mckays' hugharuechan on January 13th, 2011 02:38 am (UTC)
Actually the chatzy bit was yesterday... and the vgift was today... the errands were a bit of both days... I'm sure confused on my timeline writing thingy... /fail

But no matter when, you were one of the ones I'm thanking (and so much!!) *hugs and more hugs*
Lou: huggottalovev on January 13th, 2011 02:10 am (UTC)
*extra squishy hugs*
haruechan: Mckays' hugharuechan on January 13th, 2011 02:39 am (UTC)
Aahh! Thank you!! *hugs*
Rachel: SG-1 'Sam & Jack Heroes'rachelgrizott on January 13th, 2011 02:19 am (UTC)
a vida pode ser dificil as vezes ne?!
espero que tudo fique bem com você *hugs*
se precisar de algo que eu possa ajudar é so falar ;)
haruechan: Mckays' hugharuechan on January 13th, 2011 02:42 am (UTC)
É a vida... (é bonita e é bonita!) ~ tenho que lembrar que eu adoro essa música por uma razão... ^_^

Obrigada, Rachel!! *hugs*

Sabe, bem que vc podia morar mais perto daqui... eu teria te chamado pra sair pra beber comigo e meus amigos loucos ontem (todos preocupados comigo e que me ajudaram MUITO).
lilly_the_kidlilly_the_kid on January 13th, 2011 08:39 am (UTC)
This post really spoke to me and I wanted to wish you all the best!
Erika: kneesx_erikah_x on January 13th, 2011 09:24 am (UTC)

Isso foi o meu ano passado. Parecia que nunca ia acabar. As coisas vão melhorar.